Oh, goodie. Another blog to clog up the internet. Cuz there just aren’t enough of those.
Turns out these things don’t write themselves. I’ve been sitting here for 5 minutes, waiting for inspiration. It’s not coming from the song currently pouring out of my iTunes collection. It’s not coming from a handful of Baked Lays chips. It’s not coming from me muttering to myself, “This seemed like a great idea 10 minutes ago”. But I have faith.
I am in the midst of great upheaval in my life. I am both terrified of & thrilled by the change happening & the changes to come. So I have to have faith. Actually, it’s more like I choose to have it. Life is much more bearable & the future much brighter when the fabled glass is half-full & that, at least for me, requires faith. Faith that I will be ok. Faith that losing my job with no warning will not end with me becoming a bag lady. Faith that the people I love who all say I will land on my feet & go on to do great things say so out of an honest belief & not obligation.
I have faith that starting this blog is the first step – the push I had to deliver to myself – back into the world of writing for the joy of it. Though to be honest, I do hear a small voice saying, “Just what the world needs: another blog. Just what every well-intentioned out-of-work idiot thinks is actually accomplishing something”. Misguided at best, pathetic at worst.
To that voice I scrunch up my face & deliver a raspberry worthy of Opus the Penguin. PFFFFBBBTTTHTHTHTTTT!!
This may be a short-lived project that I’ll refer to down the line with some embarrassment (or not at all). It may be the jumping off point for writing a complete book or another play. It may take on a life of its own, the likes of which I can’t imagine as I sit here right now. What I DO know is that I will never know if I don’t write it, put it up there & ask people to be so kind as to drop in & see what I have to say.
So it is that on March 24, 2010, The Goddess Files came into the world.
March 25, 2010 at 8:16 am |
It’s NOT obligation. Love you, and am so proud of this (and of course instantaneously put it in my Google Reader so I can be up to date at all times).
March 26, 2010 at 3:59 am |
*Mad at Erin for being the first to reply – I WANTED TO BE – LOL*
Awesome job getting it! I look forward to following what you have to say and what the Goddess Files will come to be. Enjoy it because it’s the journey, not the destination (or some such cliche that always proves true…)